Confession

I haven't written in a while. Not any particularly interesting current events going on lately, well up until recently that is. I told Landin everything. That I was going, no matter what he did or said, and that it was necessary. I explained everything to him that I've discussed in these notes. Another turn of events included my telling Amber these plans, and her wanting to go as well. She's always been like me, a wanderer, not completely satisfied with the way her life turned out at this point either. We've been discussing where we want to go first. She's suggested Taipei, Taiwan because she has a friend who currently lives there and is teaching English as a Foreign language. We would be able to crash with him for a while until we got on our feet, and got used to the idea of being across the globe from anything and everything we know. It's not set in stone yet, and we still have time to figure it out but it's an idea for now. Our other idea was Koh Samui Island, if we decide to go more for the cheap island lifestyle. I'm also going to get my TESL certification, which is "Teaching English as a Second Language", in other countries. Once I get this I'll pretty much have a job opportunity anywhere I go in the world…everyone is always looking for more (American) English-speaking foreigners. It's in very high demand all over. I already purchased my birth certificate, and when that arrives I'll be going to get my passport. Melissa, my roommate, is currently trying to get out of our lease because she decided to stay in Austin after going to open up a new Razoo's there. So, it would be AWESOME for both of us if we could just get out of the lease, seriously… that would give me so much more time to save up. I’m keeping my fingers crossed on that one.


On a shittier note, we laid off 2 more people here at work which is NOT good at all. Now, ****h, ****a and I have to cover the slack that ****y used to pick up and take shifts every single day on answering the phones. It really f'in sucks. I also found out that not only are we going to need to lay off at lease one more person to stay afloat, but ****y wants ****e to buy him out! ****y wants to back out of the business! So, needless to say… I may not be working here for much longer. I was really relying on this job to get me through the next year, so I can save plenty of money and have a nice fat Christmas bonus and all that good stuff. But I seriously don't think *the company* is going to make it to Christmas. I've been searching for side jobs though as well to get a little extra incoming cash flow. I found this one gig so far, house cleaning weekly or bi-weekly for some dude who lives in a huge house. I could just do these every weekend and that would get some decent extra flow in my pockets. It just sucks though, knowing I could lose my job at any minute and be screwed. I know I could find another job, or two if I have to to keep the same incoming cash, but I just don't like knowing that I have to go searching again after 4 years of sweating and bleeding for the same company just to watch it go under. I can only imagine how ****e is feeling. The economy really sucks right now too, so finding a GOOD job isn't exactly going to be easy. What a freaking mess.

I also STILL don't have a car. Those more *collision* guys have had my car just sitting at their body shop for over a month now. I really wish this Dave guy would pay me. I have $6500.00 just sitting in my account right now, READY to pay off the damn car. Now this douche is wanting to possibly go through insurance since the repair costs are so high. And he's just dragging me along, doing absolutely nothing about the mess to get me paid. So I'm still without a damn car until he feels like paying me.

Shit just SUCKS right now, damn! Can't wait to get the hell out of here!

I'm excited that everything is becoming more and more real now though. I'm really going to do this, and it's going to be amazing. I absolutely cannot wait. My life is going to be magical. I've already started knocking shit off my to-do list. I filed my taxes, I applied for my TEFL certification, I'm getting my baby Taylor fixed so I can start back learning the guitar very SOON, I got another little side job to bring in some extra cash, ordered my birth certificate, got all my personal paperwork and filing in order and organized… it feels good, really good. I feel like I'm making headway in my life for once, despite all the other unfortunate events.

I'll get through it. Just another ditch in the road.
Ahhh, more to come later.